Family. And how it makes us who we are

After spending a day with my family I have witnessed many characteristics I hope I display, and more than a few I hope I don't. Family is an odd concept, and without going into too much detail I will try to explain what I mean. My parents help take care of a set of my grandparents and at our gathering today my grandmother was more than usual off her rocker and said a ton of crazy shit and ended up soiling herself (we will leave it at that). So on the way home my mom was apologizing and my family just looked at her and we all said, it comes with the territory. Family is one of the few things in life you can't choose, just like you can't choose your height, so you love them the best you can and put up with their bullshit and baggage.

In this same manner we can't pick how we feel. Which really explains me, I am bisexual. I have been attracted to guys and girls for a while now. I see different things in both sexes. That being said I have not really told anyone about this so this blog is my outlet for that. I have a ton going on in my life with graduation and picking a career and where to live. And how I want to live my life is something I have been thinking a lot about. So for now I guess I will use this to talk about that, and the happenings of my life.

So my first story is from Thanksgiving break. I'm currently at home, which is a ways from school so I don't get home too often and this week I have hooked up with both a guy and a girl. The girl was my ex-girlfriend from high school who I see every once and a while and my friends and I were out one night at a bar here in town and ran into her and I ended up making out with her there and going back to her car for a while afterward and fooled around. It always awkward with her so I don't know what to think but we will go back to talking every once and a while and act like nothing changed. I'm not sure how to feel about it.

Okay that's it for now. I'll update later with more about my other hookup and how that all played out. Along with some stuff from my past.

Late to the game.

Whats up to whoever reads these blogs. I just recently discovered the whole blog movement and within that a whole bunch of guys who are in the same boat as me. Which is weird to have somewhere to talk about everything. I'm a normal college student but that part of my life ends this spring and a whole new chapter will begin. This is an odd sensation writing out how I feel and even the idea of writing down stories from my past and working out how I feel about my extremely uncertain future. Not just with graduation but also with what I will end up like, who I will be with, what kind of family will I have. I will write more later but I just wanted to set this up after seeing so many blogs out there that are about similar situations to mine.