Tuesday, March 29, 2011

A thousand different directions

My life is headed in a thousand different directions right now and I really need to be asleep but I can't sleep. I am out of town and the beds in this hotel are not comfortable. So instead I am writing this. Well I am actually not writing anything and I should be studying for one of the last midterms I will ever take but I am not. So here I am typing out my thoughts.

After my last post I need to clarify some stuff about GF2 and I's relationship. One, we are not that serious. We are serious in the fact that we don't sleep apart at night unless we really have to and that we know each others routines and I know that if she had a tough day at school she will go straight to the gym but if her classes went better than expected she will wait for me. Which brings me to my next thing, we are coming to a major cross roads and while I talked about the future before, we both know that is a long ways off. I will be leaving in less than two months most likely for a city that is either 5 or 6 hours away depending on which job offer I accept (yes I have two pretty much in the bag, hence me being gone right now, but I still don't know where I will be) and she has to stay. She has a long term commitment (read graduate school) at the same place we went to Undergrad. So that pushes any talk of the future far off into the future.

Some things I know for sure about my future is that I will be employed after I graduate. The fact that the actual date is less than two months away freaks me out, but still I will have a job And I have decided that in a few years I want to go back to school to get my MBA. I am staying more to the west for my potential careers so heading back east to get my MBA would be great as long as my family is still around.

Okay in summary. I liked that GF2 talked about the future because after everything went down I was worried shit was unfixable. I have gotten my act together in the relationship as well and I plan on enjoying it for the next two months. When I move, I will let whatever happens, happen. I will be moving because by June 1 I will be employed somewhere with a salary. I also at some point plan on going back to school. Thats all for now. This post was all over and I apologize for that. Sometimes I write these and forget you guys don't have the whole story. I won't be having kids anytime soon, so no worries.

Random fact of the day. In the last 5 weeks I have been to over 1/5 of the states. Lot of miles on the road. Anyways have a good one guys and I promise to write more later. Hope you enjoy this song. Tyrone is pretty great.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Update and some thoughts on manners.

Just a quick update as I am just stopping in for some lunch before I head out again for the day, but I wanted to blog more as my big life decisions get closer. In that area GF2 and I have been all over the place this week. We have had some trust issues, her trusting me, after how she found out and then after I wasn't completely forthcoming about a friendship I have, but now I have been and we are working on it. But on monday a bunch of people were hanging out and she just got really upset and pissy with me and I didn't know exactly what was bothering her, but I figured it out eventually and then we talked about it and she told me it was the trust issue that got her upset. This is after her telling me she could see herself spending the rest of her life with me this past weekend and last night we went out and talked about out ideas about a timeline for engagement, marriage, and kids. This was a pretty general conversation but at 22 it kind of threw me for a loop. Anyways I am working on our future and as I head out for final round interviews in the next few weeks I will be using the drive time to sort shit out in my head.

Okay what has really been bothering me is an e-mail from a lady I work with on campus. I help her out with events around campus and I had volunteered to help with one next week, told I wasn't needed and then in the end they did need me. But to tell me they need me this lady sent me the longest back handed complement e-mail I have ever gotten. Telling me I did great last time I helped out but here are four or seven things you did that were not so good and I won't be there this time so I have assigned you a baby sitter. Anyways I can't help out cause I have an interview and will be out of town, but this bitch is only 8 months older than me and pretty much told me she needs my help but lsat time I helped I sucked. Well clearly I don't suck too much because Ill be working for a corporation making almost double what she does as administrative assistant for a college. Sorry I am being such a dick here, but I have gone out of my way to help her and her office and I didn't need her shit.

Anyways. Song time. If anyone listens to these... Well I don't really care cause this is for me. (The music that is) and this is Yellowcard's new song. I loved these guys when I was younger and I don't mind this song (okay that is a lie, a friend gave it to me and I listened to it on repeat for an hour or so). Anyways I'll write again tomorrow and I should be nice and hung over after a night out for St. Patty's day.  Have a good one guys.

Monday, March 14, 2011

Busy Busy Busy

Hey guys, hope everyone is doing well. It has been a while. I have a lot to write about and now that I am done traveling for a while I may actually have time to get some posts done this week. I can't believe I am in the home stretch of my last semester of college and I feel like it has been flying by. I am enjoying it, but the fact that in the next two to three weeks I will figure out where I will live and what my career will be for the next few years is a little mind boggling. Anyways a lot has been going on recently so I have a few different things to post about.

This is about GF 2 and I. Her and I have been having a lot more sex recently, I'm not sure why but it has happened. More so than before. I wish I could say I learned some awesome tricks or something but clearly I am doing well cause she has been waking me up in the morning early just to get some, and she loves her sleep, and this is after having sex before we go to bed the night before. Anyways because of the increase of frequency our chance of mistakes was increased as well. She had just switched birth controls so the first month you are not protected and of course, I got drunk and we had sex and in the middle of doing it the condom came off and I didn't realize. I did realize it suddenly felt better but not until after we both got off did I realize that the condom was laying on the other side of the bed from one or two position changes ago. So I realize what has happened and know that I have to say something, and then I have to get up at 3 am and start looking online at what time the pharmacy across town opens up. This is not how I wanted my night to go.

I had to go to work in the morning and thankfully her roommate took her to get it, but that morning in the shower all I could think of was having a kid. And how kids with my current gf would be pretty great and that they would be smart and good looking (hopefully) and it was just something I could actually see in my future. And all day whenever I saw little kids and when I hand with my family later that week who has little kids in the back of the mind I wondered what a bunch of little "guys next door" would be like. (I need a better name for myself... and suggestions from the few people who actually read what I write?) Anyways this transition nicely into the next couple posts about my future and was something that stuck with me. I know plan B isn't that uncommon in college (it should be, but that is a whole other discussion about our generation, I don't care if you have sex but it really isn't that hard to get condoms, you can get them for free walking to class some days) but the whole thing made me think of my future and it cemented in my mind the idea that I want 2 or 3 kids and I want them to be biologically mine. I think....

Anyways guys that is it for now. Here is a great song that has nothing to do with my post but I have had it stuck in my head the past couple days.