What I want...

Warning: This post will be a little selfish, but also much more open. Deal with it Bro. Also do not get used to me posting 3 days in a row, I will be posting more but not everyday. I am no Bi Like Me, I don't know how that guy does it.

So to start us off I have a song. Here it is. Listen to it, because I am going to talk about it.

This song represents a ton of shit to me and I am not going to get into the over analysis of it too much but the video is also pretty interesting. To me this is something I would dance to at a bar hammered out of my mind, bumping and grinding on the dance floor or where ever I may be. It also takes me back to college and for some reason I associate it with a lot of moments and I would picture myself if I had lived the Fraternity Memoirs. Don't ask me why, I just do. It seems like a Frat Castle Party Song and for some reason in my life I have romanticized the idea of Greek Life and really wish I had that to look back on (see earlier post, and for that matter more of this post). I really thank Cameron at If I do the right thing for bringing those stories to my attention. I hope Walsh is out there happy with his life... I also want to suggest you go read MadManMD's thoughts on it as well. Reading another guys reaction helped me figure out how the fuck I felt.

Okay so if you are still with me after all those links I just posted here it goes. I want an Adam figure from the stories. An older brother kind of figure who I can go to with shit, is anywhere from 3 to 10 years older than me, pushes me to work harder in all aspects of life, and behind closed doors, well we can have fun. At the same time I want to marry my girlfriend, have a family and be an awesome dad to 2.4 little kids. The American Dream, with a little cock mixed in. I know this is delusional but I am being honest here. It is also incredibly selfish. And I know that, but I don't know how to make this work in my life. I have 2 incredibly different sexual appetites and they both like to be fed.

With him, I would want him to be in charge, throw me around a little bit and tell me what to do. But not in the creepy wear a leather mask and own you kind of way... In a Big situation in a frat. I want to be able to play video games and bet a blow job on who gets the most kills in the next match (I'll lose) or who wins the next MarioKart race (I'll win) and after that I want us to be normal buds, have our wives be friends and our kids get along. But I also want him to fuck me every once and a while... no homo.... wait what....

And with her it would be the opposite, I take charge in the bedroom and love to give it to her a little fast and hard. Switch up the positions and make her toes curl up. With a guy, I hate being in charge, I guess that is why the masseuse got lucky that I just went with the flow, but I can't imagine not being the boss with my lady. Call me old fashioned.... with a 21st century twist.  

Anyways I know this is delusional and incredibly selfish and so unlikely that I don't know why I entertain the thoughts but for now, I am going to pass out in my hotel room thinking about what the fuck I am going to do with my life.


Guy Next Door.