Hormones

My Hormones have been off the charts recently. I will get some with GF2 and then a few hours later be looking for more. And the frustrating thing is I am really looking for a little man to man action. At least that is what I am craving right now. The sex with GF2 is getting better than it has been ever and it is also much more frequent but in my down time I find myself with a hand down my pants thinking about having my other hand down some other guys pants. I really wish that I had a chill guy who I could just kick back with and get off with every once and a while. I have tried that a few times in college, 1 turned into BF1/Jake, another guy was chill for a while till his guilt for enjoying sucking a guy off got to him, and the third guy ended up being an ass. So over 4 years my three attempts have gone down in flames every time and I am left with my hand and some porn.

That isn't my only issue, I can't determine what I am looking for. Right now I am just coasting as I try and figure out my plans for next year. I have interviews in the next two weeks, so hopefully things will start to shape up for me. I feel like that is the theme of all my posts these days. I am stuck in idle and while my life sits in a spot of uncertainty, my dick is ready to jump out of my pants and play with whatever is around. This is much better to last semester where I got so stressed about my future I didn't even think about sex for  two weeks till I snapped out of it.

Luckily for me I have a ski trip and and a spring break in FL to look forward to. Until I go on my vacations I am just going to try and relax. In other news I HAVE to talk to Kyle this week about how mad at him I after he fucked me over. It is sad that I can barely be in a room with him without getting mad, and I really have not had time to talk to him because we have very opposite schedules and there are always people around if we are both home. I need to man up though, and I have a deadline.

What I really need to do is finish writing out my college years because if you have read this from the start  or at least from this post you think I am a total man whore. Which upon reflection, my freshmen year will not help you think otherwise, but I have calmed down... somewhat. That will not be happening today as I have a ton of homework to get done and want to go out after my night class (sorry this isn't my first priority, but it makes top five with booze sex school and sleep)

As for today's song, this is a new song by the lead singer of fall out boy but he is doing his own thing now. I didn't love Fall Out Boy, I saw them in concert when I went to see Blink-182 in concert and they were okay but for some reason this song has stuck with me all day today.  Depression is a little bit like happy hour, right? It's always got to be happening somewhere on any given night.