Part 2

I want to start by apologizing for the horrible writing in my posts. I am writing these as they pop into my head and I don't really want to go back over them and edit them. At school I feel like all I do is write papers and then spend hours editing them, I have not made the same kind of commitment to this blog. (sorry) But I hope you all are enjoying it now.

High School was awesome for me, but at the same time I had a huge internal conflict. And after reading other blogs a lot of other guys seem to have had similar experiences because of our situation. I only went to High School with maybe 20 kids from my middle school because of zoning which was the largest factor in me actually enjoying HS. I now have a class of over 600 kids to start fresh with, and that is just what I did, I made friends who were in a couple of my classes and by the first day had people to sit with at lunch so things were already looking up. GF1 and I didn't go to school together, but we would talk every day on AIM and the phone and on the weekend our parents would drive us to see each other. Things were going good for me and I just ignored that question about guys that was lingering up in the back of my mind.

So freshmen year went on and things were good except now I was seeing Vacation friend from my last post around school (he didn't go to my middle school) but I just ignore him and the thoughts in my head about being with both guys and girls. Well after about six months of not going to school together GF1 and I broke up, we had grown apart because of the no school things but this relationship was by no means over. I two other girls freshmen year but nothing major. And the year ended.

Sophomore year I got back with GF1 probably 3 times. We were each others closest friend and it was hard being apart but at times hard being together. (We are now really good friends and sometimes fall back into it, if you have read all my posts she is the one I made out with over thanksgiving break) Anyways sophomore year was a big year for this blog too because vacation friend IMed me one day while I happened to be jacking off and was talking to me about school and some other random shit and he brought it up again and he asked if I ever thought about what happened. I said yes and we ended up talking and then decided to meet in a park that was between our houses. So I walk there nervous as shit. We meet on a path in a pretty wooded area, and we end up in the woods and we blew each other. I was freaking out inside, it felt good, and he was good looking, played football and was popular, I was not sure how I felt. Anyways I went home and we ended up doing that somewhat frequently. This year also marked the year that I really started forming my close group of friends. It spanned 3 grade levels, and through this group I also started drinking and smoking. (I quit smoking a long time ago, but it is going to be relevant in a little bit)

Junior year was even better than sophomore and I could barely believe it. Vacation friend ended up leaving with his family before this year so that was gone and GF1 and I got back together for the last time. I till remember the night I lost my virginity to her, it was also the night I got my drivers license and we went to a random house party and did it on an office floor. How special. I don't regret it, the setting could have been better though. This year the friendship group changed and we continued to have a good time. GF1 and I broke up for the last real break up around Christmas that year and I just focused on grades for college and having a good time.

With vacation friend being gone my mind has really been clear of my bisexuality for a while but then GF1 and I broke up and I start to wander. In the end there was a guy in my group who friends of people I was friends with so we were not that close but we ended up belonging to the same gym. And after a while started going at the same time and then hanging out after we went to the gym. And then I was blowing him, and not just once, but a lot. I look back on this time with mixed emotions, he was an ass to me a lot and yet I came back for more and I would always get myself off afterwards. Anyways things got messy, people started to talk, so we stopped. Or so I thought.

This is soooo fucking long. I apologize, but only one year left. Senior year our group shrank and there were 9 of us in my grade who became extremely close, good mix of guys and girls and we did almost everything together or in smaller subsets of the group. I think I had maybe 2 classes that one of them wasn't in and that is just because I took AP classes they didn't. This year i was single the whole year and I made out with some girls at house parties but at the same time was getting off to bi porn at home and wondering what I was doing. This was not a phase and I clearly liked sex with both sexes. This year was stressful because of the picking colleges aspect of life and then just trying to make it live up to my amazing Junior year. In the end it did and I still get together with my core group of friends from high school every time I am home. During my search I went to visit gym buddies school and I wasn't staying with him but I ended up drunkenly meeting up with him and he popped my other cherry. This is much more of a regret but we learn from our past and I moved on.

Okay this post is hella long and I appologize for that. I am gonna do a shorter one tomorrow on just the summer before college because it was rather eventful. It involves all the people so far mentioned and with it being the shortest summer I have ever had almost everyday had something big going on. So now I leave you with a song from high school.